It’s time for me to re-evaluate my life. It’s something I have been doing sporadically in the past few months. However, I plan to actually sit down in the next few weeks and write down my plans and goals. And also think about some decisions I have made and re-think them.
Some of you might remember how last year I was contemplating starting some private work. Well, I did. Sort of. In February this year, I found a place and started to try to work some Saturdays. Till now, I’ve had 4 clients for one-off assessments. I have tried to do a bit of marketing but haven’t been very enthusiastic about it. I guess the reality of your own private business hit me only after I began. And that too, not straightaway. There was one difficult parent I dealt with and that made me realise how much I missed having a team to work with. Someone to talk to about it and whinge about it. And I wonder whether I haven’t been marketing and networking wholeheartedly because honestly, my heart isn’t in it. I’m not sure now whether I should market my work with some more persistence and give it till Feb 2013 to see if things pick up. Or whether I should just give private practice a miss and continue my public service job. Which I love.
Basically, I need to figure out if I really want this. Part of me wishes I could have figured it out earlier. Before I shelled out money for a room ($200 per month). Before I spent money on getting business cards and brochures. Before I spent money on registering a business name. But again, I thought I wanted it. I just didn’t realise how much I’d miss a team environment. And if I give up now, is it failure on my part? I don’t know.
I also want to decide on further study. Seriously consider it. Not a PhD. But rather a D. Psych in Clinical Psychology. Apart from the extra knowledge, you also get paid more as a clinical psychologist. And being in the health system makes it easier to get placements through secondments in other departments.
I want to say that I want to re-evaluate my personal life but after one date, I feel like I need a break. A break from it all and just enjoy being single. I would like to expand my social group though. At the moment, I have two book clubs. I have also recently joined a theater club and am going for the first meet up in September.
Finally, and most importantly I suppose, I want that work-life balance. I want to be able to spend more time with the cats. Read more of the books on my bookshelf. Lose the weight I have to lose. Be healthy.
Is this what they call a mid-life crisis?
Until next time,