It’s a question I’ve been pondering over every now and then in the past few weeks. Especially since I started those dating posts. I know I write under a pseudonym. But at the same time, I’ve been vain enough to brag about the blog to people I know in real life over the past few years. And they do read it. Including my mum.
With the onset of the new year, I had also changed my profile picture. A picture I thought had been properly pixellated. Until a friend in real life mentioned you could still tell it was me. I finally changed it even more 2 weeks ago. Because I think I’d still prefer to remain a bit anonymous.
However, despite the pseudonym and the fuzzy picture, I wonder: am I disclosing too much on here?
This started off as a personal blog. A way to chronicle my life and all that touches it. It was supposed to be a journal where I could pour out my happy moments, my stressful moments, my battles with my anxiety and low moods as well as my strong opinions on issues I’m passionate about. I think though, with a personal blog, the person behind the blog can definitely come across. And I find that I rarely hold back and what you get here is pretty much me. Without a mask.
But it also scares me sometimes.
It scares me that there are people out there who know intimate details about my personality. My quirks. My neuroses. My flaws. Things which we take months to share with another individual in real life. While I have done my best to remain anonymous in other ways, I still sometimes wonder whether I’m being smart by putting so much out there about myself. My friend at work asked me during the time I was reminiscing about the Writer whether I had told him I blog. Uh…no. No way is more like it. Again, it’s an indication of just how much I put out there that I wouldn’t want a potential partner to see until maybe at least a few weeks in. And even that, I’m not sure. My ex knew I blogged but never really understood it or read it. He knew all my craziness though. So that’s a different story.
Anyway, I just wanted to put it out there.
If you have a personal blog, do you ever go through this?
Despite not putting up personal photos, do you still feel like there is a lot of you just put out there? I like reading personal blogs and getting to ‘know’ people. But sometimes…just sometimes…do you ever wonder about all of this?
Just thinking out loud.
As I tend to.
Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Until next time,