I am very aware that life isn’t fair. I have no fantasies about justice. But every now and then, something occurs that makes me question this. It makes me wonder why life is just so unfair for some people over others. Why shit happens a lot more only for some individuals while others have the usual ups and downs in life.
Last week was a tough week at work. I had a client in crisis but was able to deal with all of it. I had pretty full days resulting in eating lunch at my desk while catching up on paperwork. Then on Thursday, the day before the long weekend, I saw a new family for an assessment. And their story — or at least, the mum’s story — broke my heart. I was horrified at all they had endured. It seemed so unfair for someone to have suffered for almost all their life. There has been some unimaginable trauma consistently for years. And while on the outside, she wasn’t broken, there was something dead in her eyes. Like all hope was gone.
I heard her story in the assessment and I teared up. One tear drop made it’s way on to my notes. It rarely happens.I don’t think she saw it.
Later that evening driving home, I cried openly. I was angry. Angry at the world. Angry that someone has to suffer so much. Angry that some families and some people don’t get a break. It’s stuff like this that has made me question the existence of a god. If there was a god, why would some people have so much suffering while others don’t? If there was a god, why would he or she cut some families some slack? I don’t believe that god does these things to people because he knows that they are capable of shouldering some kind of burden. Because you know what? No matter how heavy a burden, they deserve a fucking break.
I also feel helpless in times like these. I question what I can do. After all, when someone has suffered for so long, there is only so much therapeutic help you can provide them with. There is not much you can change. They are jaded and who can blame them?
So while I know shit happens, this shit is not distributed evenly. Some people live their entire lives in a cocoon and the worst they might experience is the break up of a relationship or the death of a loved one. Yet, there are others who are subject to abuse, neglect, violence, injustices at work, poor family relationships, poor social relationships, poverty and so much more.
All I can think of is WHY?
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Until next time,